No, please...

It's hurt !
It's not worth wasting time for missing someone
when they don't care anything about you
It's enough from now
stop and move on..
words are always easy to say..but not to do..
is this what we called as life ?
Yes, you should treat me as cool as you can..
So that my heartbeats for you will dies!
No tears instead of heartache, the feeling is so awful..
Even it will be hurt for sometimes..
Is okay, times can heal...i believe..

Great 20th Blast !!

 Okay!! I'm officially 20th already !! Oh my !! I'm the first to be 20th amongst 8s' BFF!!
Should I be proud or sad ? Hahahaha ! Anyway...thanks for all the wishes from my dearest family, cousins and my friends ! Love you all very much ^_^ This year i had a great blast from my relatives,boss and colleagues!! Thanks for all the arrangement. I really appreciated it :)

Presents from my cousins and aunt ^^

The shirt is from my lovely lilttle cousin sister -Yuki

Ang Pao from dearest cousin sister - Meow Miao

Phone Case - My Aunt

DIY Shoes - specially from AKL ^^

All the above pictures are taken by my boss since he is not coming down to the pool,

but later he joins us..hahaha...

We are actually at boss's house to celebrate my birthday...

And we never thought that all of us have to stay overnight at his house !

as the boss asked all of us to stay and play till latenight !!

Oh my Gawd!! Do you see the wines picture below here ?

We drink it ! Oh my Oh my !

This is my 1st time drink all these wine in 1 head go...lols..

Nevermind...I drink 4 cups only...I'm still fine...

But Ms Lim Yi Xing is not fine! 

She drinks until vomit... =OOOOO

Whole body still itchy until today...

awww gawrd!!!! I hope she will be fine...hhehehe

 This is the Korean Soju (White Rice Wine)

It tastes like Banana, Ann said !

lols...and i promised Yeobo that i will buy her this...^^

 All the dishes is prepared by Ms Li !

Thank you very much for the meal ^^

 All the grandsons !! (P/S: This picture is taken during CNY13)

 All the sisters !! (P/S: This picture is taken during CNY13)

 My Family ^^ (P/S : Please ignore the food inside my mouth =P)

My Singapore Aunty and Uncle !!

(P/S: This picture is taken during celebration of my brother and cousin brother's birthday )

Haha...I got a great one for my 20th birthday !

What about yours, my friends ? ^^

Wishing you all have a great 20th blast celebration this year ^^

See ya ! Take care <3 nbsp="" p="">

I'm 20th already....

Okay...
So i see many of my friends posted on fb
say that 2013 has come! Im finally 20 !!
lol....really never think of it...
We are on our 20th already...
What can I say about it ?
Yes, this year all of the 93s' is going to be 20th...
for me...eventhough few months later I will be officially 20th...
But I think Im still a kid...Im not as mature as how you think I am...
When i was younger...I don't understand of my family situation and how i live...
When i think of it now...I feel much more relieve that I love my family so much..
My dad, my mom and my brother :)
I love them , my family...also not to forget my grandma who stay beside my house :)
Without them, I couldn't be the me today..
I work for myself and my family..
Im really appreciate that I m born to a average family.. I love them :)
Especially my dad...
No matter when I was in school studying or Im in my working job now...
He does encourage my alot...alot alot alot !!!
When Im still in school studying...
He never force me to have good grades or get no.1 in the class...
He always tell me to do my best and do what I think I wanted to...
These few days, Im too stress with my job...Im going to fed up...is going to explode soon...
I keep my complains about my boss and my company to my dad...
He did not say much...he just say in much positive way and tell me to bear with it..
Working life is like that...no matter where you work or you work with who...
No job is easy...
When I come to think of it, blabbing all over my problems to my dad, when there is only 2 of us...
I wonder how does he feels ?? Will he thinks that Im very fussy ??
And also my mom, even I always talk in rude way to her...
She still love and care about me...
She boils Red Dates Soup for me...knowing I'll be working late these few weeks...
I feel im loved and cared by the warmth of my family :)
Next is...Im also greatful that I have a bunch of friends who also always support and care about me..
Thanks to my boyfriend and girlfriend for hearing much of my complicated relationship problems...
eventhought you all are busy with your works and studies...
Sometimes i really feel myself very 'zhi zha', hahahaha
Dear friends, I will never forget about you...once a friend..forever friends in my heart :)
So is quite late now..with teary and soring eyes...
Good night! And all the best to all of you in year 2013 !
Good luck ! May this new year bring us alot of hapiness and joys :)
Take care ~ Muacksss ! See yaaa

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Im so stressss !!!
Please give me the strength to overcome these coming days...
Day by day...more and more works to do !
1 month more to go...
All of us sure can make it through !!
Jia you Jia you !! Positive Positive !!
Be patient Be patient !!
Be strong Be strong !!
FIGHTING MINNA!!!!!
Yes Yes Yes !!
HAHAHAHAHA...really sot already =D

A bitter day..

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

I might smile when the time comes

But I guess I can’t help it right now

Even though the weather is great, my mood is not

I think you’re teasing me, and I get mad

I struggle because of these situations I can’t handle

The exact opposite of me, the world continues spinning as if nothing happened

You were living just fine

It’s not fair, this is unfair

Nothing goes right

I missed the place where I was supposed to get off at this morning

Because I suddenly thought of you, I got off at a lonesome station

Because it seemed lonely today of all days, tears just kept falling

I walked for a long time like that

I miss you, who I’ve been only hating, yet again

Because the days when I was weak with no strength to hold onto you were so pathetic

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

I might smile when the time comes

But I guess I can’t help it right now

I can’t do anything

Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now

Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you

No matter what I say, it will sound like an excuse

Even if I say that all of this was for you

Because you were too good for me

Because I was uncomfortable as if I were wearing clothes that didn’t match me

You’re beautiful, but you withered away from me

How do you think I felt while looking at that?

We should have just never started

I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes that first time

I thought I would be carefree once I let you go, but that wasn’t the case

My mind understands that we’ve separated

But my heart doesn’t want to accept it

Missing you and trying to erase you, it repeats every day

I’ll be the one to take all the pain

I’d like it if you were just happy

So that the choice I make now doesn’t go to waste

So that I don’t regret it

I’ll always pray for you

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this

It will all be forgotten someday

I might smile when the time comes

But I guess I can’t help it right now

I can’t do anything

Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now

Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you

It’ll be forgotten little by little

When time passes, I’ll be able to smile and reminisce

Instead of that common saying that time heals everything

Tell me something that actually works

You can receive so much more love than what you got from me

You’re as beautiful as ever

It will all be forgotten someday

That day will come

Behind the lies...

I'm still missing you..

When I close my eyes , I think of you

Eventhought we're far apart right now

I remember back you and me

Everyday, I'm thinking what are you doing...

How has you been these few days...

Are you happy with your life right now ?

Why am I so free to think all of these !

I lied to myself..

Telling that I will forget about you

Telling that I will stop thinking about you

Time by time...

Day by day...

You are still there...

My mind is just only you...

How I wish, we never meet before...

How I wish, I could live without you

Sorry, my love...

Father's Day 2012

Happy Father's Day to all the daddies out there.
A day before Father's Day, I brought my father,mother and grandma to eat A&W...
The 'Root Beer is indeed very sweet'
On the actual Father's Day,
I went out with my guild members again...
5 boys 1 girl....
This time we went to Time Square for Maple Anniverssary event.
And suddenly...my cousin brother received a call from his mom...
Telling me...my grandpa had just passed away..
God Bless my Grandpa...85 years old
He leave us with peace...
One of my relatives went to visit him..
Calling him to wake up from the bed...
Yet, he is not answering at all...
And by that time..he already left us....
Not to say that i'm super sad for the leave of my grandpa...
because my family and I rarely visit him...
But still there is a heartache in my heart...
Father's Day was on Sunday..
and my JPJ test was on Monday...
At first, i shall attend to the funeral ceremony..right after they settled the place...
But i didn't get to join for the 1st mantra prayers..
Right after my test, at night only i get to join with them
It was so awkward to meet all the relatives there...
Once a year meet once...
How to greet them..i also didn't manage to call...
Only a bare smile i can show to them...
The funeral ceremony was placed for 3 days...
We prayed mantra 4-5 times a day...
Thanks to other friends and my colleagues for sending condolences to us...
And again..May you rest in peace,grandpa...

Born in March...

I was born in March...
I'm Pisces..
Sometimes I really don't like myself..
Sometimes I really hate myself very much..
Why I was borned to be Pisces ?
The mood of peoples who were born in Pisces are just like ocean..
Sometimes the ocean looks calm..
Sometimes the wave comes in very strong..
Which means..
We can be very happy at a moment..
But suddenly we feel very sad for all of a sudden..
Is this the nature mood of us ?
Is this our speciality or weakness ?
Why we are so easy affected by small matter?
Or it is just only me who think that way ?
Are the people outside there whom also born as Pisces,your mood are always that random ?
....

What is thinking inside them?

What in the world is happening ?
I don't really understand...
I need your supports the most...
but you seems like don't encourage me to continue study...
Can I know why ??
The time I don't even know what I want to study...
You are not like that !
You don't say it that way !
And now when the times has come..
When i say i want to study...
You tell me ,'' Think how long does it take you to earn back the money you
going to use on study now ? Now everyday you go to work , you got me fetch you.
But when you found your own job, you need to buy a car and pay montly...by that time
your lifestyle might different from now...which is harder for you to do saving...''
Ok! So i ask a question , '' You don't encourage me to study ,isn't ? ''
You replied me , '' No , no , no...is not that I don't encourage you to study...
I just tell you this as an analysis for you...is not that i don't encourage to study..i just
want you to know that if you use your own hard saving for the whole year now,
once you graduated...your bank will have zero $$...and by the time, it is harder
time for you to save money again....''
I know, the course i want to take ,doesn't seems i will work on the same field...
Who knows what is going to happen in our future ?
Changes is always happen randomly...does't it ?
Your love to me , i can feel it...i know it...
I know both of you sayang me very much...
But , I should start taking a step forward , no ?
Abuden , you want me to work whole life with my current boss ?
Eventhought i know he is good boss and he's currently ask me to follow him to work at KL,
will be giving me doubled with much satisfiction salary there...
with my only SPM qualification now ,
can get RM x,xxx salary is quite good,uh ?
But my salary will remain the same if i don't have any cert...
It will be very hard for me to go for a higher position with better salary in the future..
If you ask me to study later...
Then may i know when is ur ''later'' ?
A few years later from now...
i think most of my friends already graduated / fighting with final year..
By that time, i don't really dare to think if i still have the brain to study..
Or you think i will just continue study after i get married ?
Lol , i don't think so ? With a new family , is a burden then...
I want to enjoy my young life...
Althought i don't know how hard will be the path...
We still have to come across the problems...
I really hope...after this...when talk about studies...
Please say out some supporting words to me...
I really need your supports and courages...
Althought i got many courages from my friends...
But i need yours the most...please...
i beg you...i will never let you both to worry about me anymore...
i will show you that i can make it! because i'm your daughter =)
i love you ~

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