Undelightful holidays

i'm so sad...
i just only can blog here...to express my feeling...
i suddenly feel that...
i dont like holidays...
its so...stressful for me...
i dono why!!! maybe...many sad thing keep happening on me this few days..
yesterday jus fight with myfriend...and i lost 2 friends =)
dontknow and when...or maybe some other day... we will be friends again ,uh ??
i dontknow...
i still have 1 month holiday...i dontknow how i'm going to spend my time...
could someone help me..what should i do for now ?? to cool down my feeling ??
no...no one can understand me now..
i tried to look for a job...
but...i dontknow why i got a feeling...i will never work well as i haven try the job before...
this feeling fear my own....and maybe..i'm not ready yet to look forward to the reality world...
somehow..i know i'm crapping here...but...this is what i really going to say...
I have a question to ask...
Is eldery have the '...' to say the younger [...] ?? since they..their ownself...can say bad sentences to their eldery ??
I wonder if the eldery have ever think b4 they want to speak...and sometimes it does hurt the younger's heart....like everything they say..is 100% correct and we should keep it..
If we say back a sentence...they say we fight their talks...oh my god...
I think every1 also know that human's mouth is the most poisoning....because they can just anyhow say the words they want in purpose or accidently....
So...i'm so sorry about this post...
but i'm just confessing my feeling..
and i feel better now...
sorry again....